I am a chronic blogger. I’ve been blogging off and on and in various spaces since the days of Live Journal. I’ve written about some very personal items and shared stories of what life was like in a chaotic household with an alcoholic father, but I’ve always I’ve lost some steam with the writing projects after a period of time. The problem, I’ve come to realize, is that I was censoring myself. I was keeping the full truth of my experiences hidden, in part to protect some of the people who were around during tough times, but also to protect myself. The more that I wrote, combined with the work I’ve been doing in therapy, the more that I wanted to quit stopping myself short of sharing the full experience.
Though I have chosen to maintain some anonymity this time around, it is the only way that I feel that I can open up and share the truth of being me. You are going to get it all – the childhood spent with an alcoholic father, the abuse from a grandfather, the mother with depression, the years spent as one of Jehovah’s Witnesses, the marriage to a narcissist, and how all of those experiences continue to impact and shape my life, both personally and professionally. There will be good, there will be beautiful, and sometimes there will be tough and ugly, but what is most important is that it will be all of me.
I am a firm believer that sharing our stories connects us and being able to relate just might make someone feel a little less alone in their situation. So, welcome to my truth.